2nd post.
a great thing to share....
where shall we start?
*ok, u guys should just ignore my unfinished last post bcos of the lame internet connection. it took me hours just to upload two pics* pissed of*


friends have been asking this question since i was still in my school uniform:" are you attached? when are you going to have a boyfriend?" some even told me this:" oh god, u should really have a taste of how it feels like to be in love lest u get rotten" ...


so am proudly to tell u guys that im finally experiencing the sweet-sour thing called LOVE!!!
surprised? me too. me myself am as surprised as well.
never expected that things would turn out this way.
i mean, i have known this guy for almost two years and we've been getting along well too but there's just this obstacle which turned me away. We are both Christian but there are some differences in our beliefs which i think will cause a lot of probs and tiffs if we get into a relationship. My friends kept telling me that, that wont be a problem, u both can still work things out. But i just couldn't seem to convince myself to it, for me, this obstacle was the red light to our relationship. no matter how great he was, we could only be friends. and yeah, not more than friends. the question is, did i carry some special feeling to him? i asked myself that question and what popped up in my mind was:" No. It's not love. You guys cant possibly get into a relationship. Things wont work out!!! definitely wont!"
and yeah, my mind overcame my heart.

Remembering last Christmas eve....
a few days before the xmas eve, he kept asking me what did i want for Christmas...
and i kept telling him that i wanted to have a santa claus for Christmas*which was nearly impossible-cos i didnt even want anything from him for xmas*
and guess what did he do?
He came over to my house at around 2am in the 25th morning and brought me a teddy bear...

i was like:" Jesus Christ, a tall and skinny santa for real??" hohoho...MERRY CHRISTMAS!
He's like a guardian angel to me, always come to help whenever i need him.


But no matter how good he was, how attentive he could get, we remained friends and once again, not more than that.
Not until recently, some things happen and change many things.
*too lazy to type*
let's just say, a third-party came between us and almost tore us apart but eventually brought us together.
*it sounds so COMPLICATED! indeed!it's really C-O-M-P-L-I-C-A-T-E-D!!!!!like those relationships u guys watch in dramas*
it was on last 24th when he popped up that question which got me totally dumbfounded.
"In sucha state, will you be my girlfriend???"
i was like:"........."
but after a few mins of thinking, i responded to his question:"please gimme a month's time to think it over and sort things out. cos im not sure if i do really love you. and to settle things that might come to our way."
i hesitated,i couldnt trust him, i wasn't sure and had no confidence in him....not at all.
reliable?trustworthy? i could see none of it in him.
"i will. i will prove it to you. a month's time. i'll be waiting for ur answer on this Christmas Eve"

and things are working out quite good so far. i can see him putting efforts in trying to gain back my trust.
To be loved and doted on and understood. A brand-new kind of happiness!

To whoever is reading this, please just wish me luck.
Pray for me. It's a big decision to make,seriously.
To have another person to share my life with is surely not an easy thing for me since i get used to being a happy-single.
"To have a boyfriend is having another person who loves you but at the same time another person to worry about." hey hey hey, im finally back to blogging after so many months.
decide to abandon my previous blog and start a new one since another new phase of my life has officially started*ok, im actually so uber lazy to organize the previous one*

i'll blog more, i promise, cos mum has got me a new laptop and modem so there's no more excuses for me to not to blog.
amma write down what i've been through everyday be it about my job,college,friendship and random stuffs.
are u you ready to join in the randomness?
so get prepared, cos u'll be sick of reading about my routines on weekdays.


let's get started....

have a look at my new lappie...
liver-red HP with a newer OS....